I realize how short my presentation was. Mainly because I'm terrified of being in front of a group to do anything, and I also had a really emotionally rough two weeks. I hope it wasn't as bad as I thought.
What I was trying to show in my presentation was that I was a personality roller-coaster. I used to hang out with people that weren't like me, and because of that, I never got to find out who I was. I still have no idea who I am really. I felt like if I didn't fit in, then I never would and that really got me down a lot of the time. When I said that it got better when I joined chorus, not much helped except for feeling a little more part of a group than the odd one out.
When I came to Converse I felt so welcomed and so very much at home that I didn't notice my pain-filled past as much. Unfortunately, the further into the year it came, the less and less I saw of people, and I thought it was because they didn't like me. But of course, it was my paranoia. They were just as busy as I was, if not more. It's still taking me some time to get over that ditch in my confidence, but I'm getting better by the day, it seems. Coming to Converse was a big part in that for me. And now it's happening all over again with my family here at school.
I want to be able to help younger people realize what they need to do for themselves. Music saved my life so many times, and I want to be able to share that with my future chorus classes. I want them to know that they can crawl out of their cocoons to be beautiful people too.
And so, I want to thank all of my new friends here at Converse College. You're the best people a girl could ask for :)
And we "heart" you too, Libby! Though you might be nervous to speak in front of group, you certainly don't appear to be as trauma-filled as you seem to think. I'm glad that you are actively trying to work through your self-conscience issues--it's difficult to actually change our outlook of ourselves, but it CAN be done, and it's completely worth all the work.
ReplyDeleteYour presentation was great, Libby! I'm so glad that you want to help young people discover themselves and come out of their shells. Don't let your sensitivity and paranoia get you down. Rise above all that! I am delighted that you felt welcomed and at home here at Converse, and I want you to know that I'll always be there for you because you really are great person!
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